im feelin v.v.v.
emo right now. crying to myself for no reason.
for d past 2weeks, whenever i jolted back to d reality from my dreams/nightmares, i'll see red, raised bump and patches on my hands and legs. nobody can understand d sucky feelin i been having. i've been visiting d doc for countless times, popping loads of pills like nobody business &putting loads of cream on my rashes. Oh yea, my constipation jus dowan to kiss my ass gdbye. &now, i feelin feverish, throat v.sore, ass farkin pain &d whole body felt so itchy.
i felt like a cancer patient going thru numerous cancer chemotherapy, fighting d terminal illness alone. i noe babyy is always there but i myself noe dat how my body works &i need a much stronger dose of medicines to get well as my body alrdy
immune le. whenever its time to eat medicines, deep down i'll get veri worked up, thinkin dat i've been eating so many days of medicines le why i haven recover & thus sometimes, i'll jus throw d pills out of d window or refuse to eat.
i wan to have a clean bill of health, no more falling sick &no more of popping pills. cant i jus stay sickless? is dat too much to ask from you GOD? pray for me pple.
GOD, pls stay wid me. heal me wid ya hand.
